What is happening to me?
Is this what it feels like? To feel sad and alone when there’s someone in the next room waiting for you to come to bed?
That isn’t supposed to be me. What I’m feeling isn’t what I should be feeling. I’m the happy, optimistic girl who is laid-back and all “It’s all good, dude.”
I’m told every day how beautiful I am. But each glance in the mirror says otherwise.
Maybe I’ve torn myself down to the point where I can’t be built back up.
I don’t know what is going on. I don’t like it and I’m scared. And angry.
What is happening to me?
12:47 am • 2 May 2013
Dude, I’m trying to help you be more optimistic. But your pessimistic ass won’t listen to me. Quit complaining about all the “shit” you have to do and do the fucking work. I’m sick and tired of you mucking around doing absolutely nothing until the last minute and then hearing you whine and complain about you have a shit ton of things to do in the next few hours.
But that is how you work and you end up passing with flying colors. I love the hell out of you, but you annoy the fuck out of me.
6:44 pm • 29 April 2013
I heard you’re getting married
I heard you’re getting married.
Congratulations- that is the first thing I have said to you since May 2012. Three minutes ago I sent you a text message. It’s amazing your phone number is perfectly imbedded in my memory, as are other unfortunates.
Things didn’t end well between us. Who knows if we ever will work things out in a civilized manner. You have finally found a woman worth everything you are. I surely know that wasn’t meant to be me.
You finally responded- Thanks!- that is the first thing you have said to me since May 2012. I will never know if it was sincere or not.
I heard you’re getting married.
I hope it lasts.
11:08 pm • 22 April 2013 • 1 note
You don’t get it, do you?
I wake up in the morning when my alarm goes off. I get my ass out of bed, brush my teeth, wash my face, put on makeup, fix my hair, put on professional attire, gather my things, get on my bike, and go to class. Also, I feed my cat and eat breakfast.
Simple.
But now that my boyfriend has limited use of his left hand due to injury, I have to help him with his daily tasks. That means I am waking up two hours earlier than usual to clean his wound and re-bandage his hand, wash his face, get dressed, help him get his hair in order, have him take his medicine, eat breakfast, get his stuff together and drive him to class. At the same time, I have to work on my morning routine. That is just how we get the day rolling.
And you know what? I am okay with it because I love him and I want to be there for him.
But you are giving me grief about not being there to listen to you rant about your extreme jealously and relationship issues 24/7. I want to be there for you, but it’s difficult. In the midst of being sole caretaker of my boyfriend, I am cooking, cleaning, washing clothes, typing both of our papers, working on my video and 800 point research project, preparing for finals, paying bills AND working. We fight over petty things and it kills him that he can’t do anything to help out, but that is how it works for the time being.
I just don’t understand how you have the nerve to call me out as being a bad friend, when at 3 am I am still texting you, my best friend, apologizing for not giving you my undivided attention for the past week. We were talking on Monday when he had his accident and I hung up on you to rush him to the emergency room and sit with him for a full hour as he was in the most physical pain he has ever experienced.
I’m not a good friend, but neither are you right now. I’m still waiting for you to ask, “How is he doing? Is he okay? How are you doing? Are you okay?”
9:32 pm • 21 April 2013
Time to get my body back to what it was.
8:49 pm • 21 April 2013
courtneysabode:
taylorgangaintmyname:
faceofthew0lf:
holyshititsliz:
the opposite of albinism called melanism,a recessive trait where the skin and fur are all black. love it more every time i see it.
I think im attracted to a lion
wow this is beautiful
If I ever saw that demon in person i’d shit myself
Demon? Bitch this is beautiful
I’ll take 12.
(via wonderlandmyth)
4:57 pm • 19 April 2013 • 386,663 notes
